Push me out from the darkness
  To a sky that's colored blue
  Somewhere someone's finding happiness
  While I'm still here so hung up on you
    Nothing is real
  And I want you to know
  That I'm not alright
  When you tear open my chest
  I'll try not to flinch
  Won't make promises
  You taught me that I'm still losing what's left out
  My self esteem
  And I'm still watching the slow fading of all my daydreams
    The hardest things to say are the words that mean the most
  So I'll bite my tongue til it bleeds and I doubt you'll even know
  The easiest thing to fake's a feeling to fool someone else
  And I've been tricked for so long by you that I spent these last few months in my own hell
    A failed apology
  A day too late but now I see
  That all you really want's to see me dangle neck first from a tree
  But what would you need me for
  You've got friends galore
  And all you'll ever be to me's a stupid lying excuse for a person
    I could call
  But I know that you won't be there to pick up the phone
  You don't have time for me
  I could call but I know you won't get the phone
  Don't have time for me
    I hate myself
  For loving you like this
  I hate myself for hating myself
  Just enough to love you
  Just enough to love you